I am going through some shit.

Some good shit so don't worry.

I am starting to enjoy life and not let the little shit get to me.

I wanna take up some hobbies.

Thinking of getting into photography which means that I want to get an awesome camera....maybe a 35 mm old school one.

I also want to get a guitar

I want to take up sewing.

Just some random things I want:

-candlesticks
-accent window lights
-an area rug
-curtains
-candles
-sewing machine

I need a car to get around. Hopefully I get the car soon.

YAY! My birthday is coming up!

20 god-damn years. WOW. I am growing up.

Classes are going well.

CS paper due on THURS.

Philo paper #2 due THURS

Philo quiz #2 on THURS

Busy day THURS

At least I don't have to work the Halloween sale.

I want to go home and take Erick and JR trick-or-treating

I need to pay rent: $1,100.

Damn.

I have November covered but I am going to scrip and save for Dec and Jan.

Hopefully I get scholarship money soon.

I owe Dad $500 and Kevin $600

Damn.

It's ok

Live is not worth living if you don't enjoy it.

I want to go clothes shopping...hardcore and go thrifting (Goodwill)

I just want to drive around Culver City and see what's around here.

I wanna buy a nice jacket.

hmm. That's about it.

Oh and I want an iPhone for my birthday but won't get it. Oh well, I am sure whatever I get (if I get anything) will be great. I rarely get any attention so I am excited for Nov. 20th. My own day.

Mom and Dad aren't getting me anything. They have NEVER given me a birthday gift...I mean NEVER. They have given me money and that's it but I wish that they put some thought into it. They have never wrapped a cool gift for me to open and be surprised by. That is just sad.

I hope that this year doesn't turn out to be more of the same shit. Maybe it will be. Oh well. I am used to it by now.

At least I have the comfort of knowing that I can drink it all away and hope that the next one turns out better....but come on, turning 20 on the 20th only happens once. No more being a teenager. Being alive for 2 whole decades. That's something. I always thought that I wouldn't live past 15.